Babies...?

I read up on other people's blogs occasionally, and read up on Twitters occasionally as well. Well, I was reading some tweets posted by a person I follow on Twitter, YouTube, AND Blogger and realised she's preggers. I've been seeing A LOT of pregnant ladies lately, but this one really hit me at home.

I know I am FAR from ready or a baby, at this point in my life, but it's something I've thought about and me and my boyfriend discussed and agreed, it's not a good idea, ever... I still think that, but sometimes wonder... What if??? A few days ago, I was at work and he mentioned to me, "You'd make a good mom." Really? You think I'd make a suitable MOTHER??? Of a CHILD? ME??? Wow... So, it's something I think about... Even though I know I'm not ready yet, what if I am ready in a few years? Will he change his mind about it? Will I? Have I already changed my mind? I thought it was something I would have to give up if I want to be with him, but now I'm questioning that. I just don't know.

My friends and aquaintences are having babies NOW and I think they're CRAZY. THEY AREN'T EVEN 21 YET! CAN'T THEY WAIT AND LIVE A LITTLE BEFORE THEY GIVE THEIR LIFE AWAY??? I mean, do they seriously NOT realize that once that baby is around, they won't have a life AT ALL? They rely on their husbands and boyfriends to pay for things while they take care of the baby... But I wish they could see THEY ARE NOT READY! They can't afford it, and aren't saving for it... and they're just being stupid, in my opinion. I'm not like that, I KNOW even though I think I want a baby right now, I CAN'T DO IT! I'M NOT READY!!! But maybe a few years down the road I will be. And if that time comes, can I count on him to be there for me?

The thoughts make me want to cry, and I'm NOT that emotional about things... But this.. I guess I am emotional about. WHY? Why am I so emotional about something I know I'm not even ready to consider yet? Why am I dwelling on it so much? I just can't figure this out...