What A Weekend

This work week was complete HELL for me! I was constantly tired (really, I still am), could not get decent sleep for the life of me... OMG this was such a bad work week for me. THANK GOODNESS IT'S OVER!!! I can't take another night of this, seriously. I was barely getting by. Today I'm going to try to stay awake all day so I can sleep at night, then after today/tonight if I have trouble getting to sleep at a decent hour, I'll pop a melatonin. I used to take it as a child to help me sleep (I also used to drink coffee in the morning to calm me down, and yes, it really worked for me). I used to have ADHD REALLY bad as a child, now, as an adult, it has calmed down, but I'm noticing it's not entirely gone and is rearing it's ugly head again. Yay me... (not really, believe me it totally sucks) At least now I can suffer AT HOME!

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It's Just Another Weekend for Me...

Back to work!

Many of you probably don't know yet, that I work a strange full-time work schedule. I only work 3 days a week, well, technically, 3 nights. Last night was my first work night of the week. I'll lay out my normal weekly work schedule for you here (it is occasionally different than what I am telling you, but not very often):

Friday: 7am- wake up; 9:30am- (2 hour) DBT class; 4pm- get ready for work; 5pm- leave for work; 5:45pm- arrive at work and try to not sleep ALL night (not even kidding, but I wish I was)

Saturday: 6:15am- leave work; 7am- arrive at home and try to sleep; 4pm- wake up, get ready for work; 5pm- leave for work; 5:45pm- arrive at work and try not to sleep all night, again

Sunday: 6am- clock out (so I'm no longer being paid for being at work, but...); 8am- leave work; 9:30am- arrive at home and try to sleep; 4pm- wake up, get ready for work; 5pm- leave for work; 5:45pm- arrive at work and try to stay awake all night, for the third night in a row

Monday: 6am: leave work; 7am- arrive at home and do nothing, maybe sleep, or maybe stay awake, but I don't do ANYTHING on Mondays!

So, yeah. I kinda sucks. On Monday I prefer to NOT sleep throughout the day so I can switch back to a day-time schedule. So, if you see dark circles under my eyes in pictures, this is why. I don't sleep... Ok, I do, but not much, really. It's all crazy. What really sucks is that it seems like EVERYTHING fun happens on a Saturday and I would so love to participate in these activities, but I can't unless I want to be dead tired all day and night, quite literally.

Last night I was like, passing out in a chair at work by like, 10pm. So I slept a bit, but I was up and down, in and out of sleep ALL night. I would wake up every couple of hours. I can't sleep very well when I'm not at home.

So, right now I'm kinda supposed to be sleeping, and I'm getting tired enough to very soon (than goodness!), but I really have a hard time sleeping when it's so light and bright outside, even the birds keep me awake. I NEED BLACK-OUT CURTAINS BADLY! I have an eye-mask and it helps a bit, but I think I'm getting a bit immune to it. Another option I have is to take a Benadryl to help me doze off, though, the first, and last, time I did that, I didn't sleep very deeply. I kept popping awake every couple hours, even at home. I hate this part of it. The sleep issue sucks so badly. And with that Friday-Saturday crap, how the HELL does my boss (or anyone else) expect me to be able to stay awake for 24 hours straight!?! Most people sleep after being awake for 14-18 hours! Last week I managed it, but not this week. I also had coffee...

Caffene does crazy things to me! I seriously makes me SO hyper I do such embarassing things when I have it. I was talking to a co-worker about her past and she's done drugs (but is clean now and has been for a LONG time) and I was kind of curious about it all because I have never involved myself in any of that crap. So I asked questions like where Cocaine and Heroine come from, what they cut it with, stuff like that. I'm not gonna get started or anything, not even considering it, I was really just curious. I also asked her what the effects on the body when on the drugs are. SHe said Heroine puts you to sleep and Cocaine kees you awake. I asked, "Like caffene?" and she said "yes, but higher," which I figured. I mean, if it was anything like caffene it would be legal or caffene would be illegal. I went on to say how disasterous and scary that would be for me to take, because of how caffene already affects me (she has SEEN it with her own eyes, it truly is amazing, what's even more amazing is how caffene used to put me to sleep!). So yesterday was pretty educational and informative. I felt comfortable asking her those questions because I know she knows I'm not thinking about getting into it, that I'm truly don't know and am just curious.

So, yeah. That's work for me... sorta. I'm a graveyard caregiver, so I tend to not have a lot to do anyway.

Anyway, peace out, keep the love! <3

I went shopping!

At my grocery store, I picked up some Maybelline shine free pressed powder in SOFT CAMEO for $5.48

Also at the grocery store, I picked up my favorite mascara, Maybelline Lash Stiletto (NOT waterproof) for $7.98

Everything else I purchased at Ulta. This is a Basics large clutch clear cosmetic bag that I paid $10 for

This Ecotools 5pc brush set was $16.99

This Ecotools Foundation brush was $6.99

This eyelash curler was $3.29

I paid $24 for this Benefit High Beam

This i.d. Bare Escentuals Light Stroke brush was given to me for free

I actually got this i.d. Bare Escentuals Angled Brush for free :-)

I got this i.d. Bare Escentuals Angled Liner brush for free, as well

This Maybelline eyeshadow quad, in Enchanted Forest, was $5.79

I paid $7.69 for this Physician's Formula Concealer Twins cream in GREEN/FAIR

This Ralph by Ralph Lauren Eau de Toilette was $30 for 1 oz.

This pair of sunglasses my Rampage was $26

This Rimmel London 8 Hour Mousse Blush in FROZEN CHERRY was $3.49

This is a Rimmel London nail colorin MILK CHOCOLATE that I got for $1.69

I paid $2.79 for this Rimmel London Sweet Jelly Sheer Lipgloss in GOURMET

This Rimmel London Volume Booster Lip Color (8323) was $3.29

This is a Sally Hansen lip color in LILAC that I got for $4.99

This is a Prestige lipstick in SLIPPER that I paid $2.29 for

This Prestige lipstick in FEVER cost me $2.29

Vloging?

So, I want to know if readers and followers of me on my numerous web pages think I should vlog. I have been considering it, but I want to know what the public thinks. Comments please!

Glee, Season 2

I'm going to audition for Glee. I have until April 26 I believe, I'll be sure to double check on that and edit this when I do. I'm either going to sing "Don't Rain On My Parade" or "Keep Holding On" but I haven't decided yet. I'm going to record myself doing both and see how I feel about each of them and decide from there. This will probably make my shoe collection video come out later, not sure when yet, but I may still do it this week for all I know. Just wanted to put that all out there for people to read because the audition may take me some time to pull together. I only get one shot at it, so it's a pretty huge deal. I WILL post it on youtube once I complete and submit it for everyone to see. That should be interesting and I hope to get a lot of comments (good or bad, but I WILL delete the ones that are just flat out rude!) from people I don't know. Feedback is GOOD!

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What's To Come...

I want to make a video of my shoe collection next and will probably do that this week. I'll even put them on a model them for everyone just to get more used to actually using my web cam on video mode. Just wanted to make a post, since my page is looking baren, and thought this would be a good one. Go ahead and comment me! I like messages from complete strangers!

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